Je ne sais pas pourquoi, mais maintenant, je veux retourner a mes langues. Depuis de terminer mes choses pour les graduaciones, je vais etudier mon franc5ais autre fois et aussi mon allemand.

I've also finalized my schedule for the next semester for a week or so. To save money, I'm only taking the following:

Astronomy-Stars and Galaxies
Engineering Thermodynamics
Basic Principles of Accounting
Medical Terminology
Calculus III

Fall right now looks like this:

Principles of Engineering
Advanced Medical Terminology
Russian I
TA-Ethics

I really would also like to add either Epidemiology and Fluid Mechanics, but I'm not sure my work schedule would fit with all of that...

I need to get back into the swing of things. I've allowed personal problems to dissuade me too much. Last night was my low, and now should be a period of respite and recovery with a profound renewal of a commitment to my academic and intellectual goals, rather than wallowing in the fear that the universe is going to get me. It can only hurt me if I let it, and if I go back to who I was before I had all of this time off to think and to do stupid things, then I should be able to recover.

Perhaps it's ironic that I am strongest when I am most vulnerable...but I guess that's my perversion of biological instinct to survive that kicks in. Instead of keeping physically alive, I keep emotional control and stability by allowing myself these blips so I can see how completely dangerous it is to allow my self the comfort of instability and to keep very much aware that part of being who I am is to stand on the edge of a precipice and wait to fall in.

I think things will be looking up soon.