Or that may just be the fact that yesterday I finally got my bodhran DVD, and spent about a half hour playing it this morning.
No, there definitely is the heart pounding going on too...I'm absolutely and completely bonkers over a particular someone. We ended up going to the movies on Tuesday night (Thank goodness, had no class), and we saw Planet 51. That's one of the things I really like about him...he's a kid at heart too. One of his favorite movies is Beauty and the Beast---and one of mine is Pocahontas (have...and regularly sing along to the soundtrack).
Afterwards, we talked for HOURS about Marian theology, world history, etc. It's shocking to have someone so easy to talk to. Being around him makes me so happy, it's hard to stand it.
I kind of wish our conversations could be a little more personal and a little less academic, but that will come.
Whenever I get to this point, I feel reinvigorated, like I know I can wait for him, because I have faith that he'll see me having done this, gone through suffering the long periods without him, and committed to him without reciprocation and doing it only with the hope of someday having it, and realize that I'm someone worth getting to know.
My confidence grows as I realize that I'm getting my wheels spinning--my new job is going come December 1 to pay me enough to live on my own, and I'm going to move out sometime in December or January.
The one thing that's not going is the fact that I am behind on my history paper, a rough draft due Tuesday, and I have no way of writing 12-15 pages on it. Shit. I should go do that.
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Oh Ray, I wish we could share our "crush" talk. I remember feeling inexplicably attracted to some guy who is now in...well, not in the States. I am afraid to reveal his I.D. on blogger (since he has a blogspot account too). Lol. Geez.
So funny thing: I am ordered to not come back to Regis until Fall 2010. ORDERED by the Dean. Craziness.
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