Ah, Work. My Salvation

Work my be the thing that keeps me sane as everything sorts itself out. I got my other job working with the department of corrections. I go to UCCS to sort out the paperwork for the job (thank God, I don't have to go all the way down the to the World Arena), and then tomorrow, I start my 8-12 shift there. It's Monday-Thursday, so I retain Friday mornings free, in general. Except this week. I have to be at my peds office job at 7:30 this Friday because one of my co-workers asked for the morning off, so I need to fill in. At least I get off at 4 so that I can get to the hospital.

I'm almost recovered from my cold. I HATE being sick, because if I don't take any meds, then I exude symptoms of disease (runny nose and coughing, normally), but meds really mess up my brain. Normally, I do a very good job of filtering things, because too much honesty is very bad, both because I tend to be brutally honest and because I expose myself in ways I don't want to (see recent blog entries on that!). Plus, cold meds make me terribly emotional, and given how emotional I have been without the drugs, I really don't need acetamenophin, dextromorphin or whatever that is, and their accomplices to mess me up any more.

I AM SO BEHIND IN HISTORY. I have 100 pages to read in less than 36 hours. I only have a page and a half on my five-six page historiographical essay, I only have ONE review (out of three) done, although I just finished a draft of review two and now must obsessively edit it. Goals for this week:
1) Finish review two.
2) Finish current book for this and next week
3) Finish a draft of historiographic essay
4) Write my 2-3 page proposal on virginity in the Late Antique world and how the theology of Mary's virginity co-incides with all of that.

Should I mention my loathing of money? I probably shouldn't. Okay, I will. I hate money. More specifically, I hate staring at my savings account for a month now and it has not changed really. It's gone down maybe $25 dollars, but that's because I've been putting all my charges on credit. It's worked its way back up to about $600. So frustrating. It doesn't help that I won't see another paycheck for TWO WEEKS. Well, more like 12 days. But still. I've been looking for a third job that I can work on Sat and Sun, but I've seen nothing that's weekend only. With my recent rejection from Target (Never again will I use the word recalcitrant in an interview...) and the fact that Sears totally ignored me, I'm not sure what to expect in the whole retail world.

It also REALLY does not help that Christmas is coming.

I'm never going to make enough money to finally live on my own. GAH!