So fine, I'll post

I don't have terribly long to post on here, particularly since I have a meeting at 10:30 at UCCS, and hopefully, after that, I can get registered for my history class.

These last two weeks have not been particularly easy for me. Dealing with rejection can be tough, but in the end, I'm actually happier that I've been rejected. There's always that feeling of reprieve you get when you no longer have to try. I may have something to say about relationships in general soon, but today isn't a good idea.

I came very close thrice in the last couple of weeks to come out to my parents, but in the end, I decided that it's not a smart idea so long as they have any kind of leverage against me. My mother would never use it, but my father is so homophobic that it's best not to leave him in any kind of position of power over me.

Speaking of which, that reign is starting to come to a close, hopefully. I've applied for a lot of jobs in the last few days that specifically have health insurance with them and that pay more than what I'm getting now. If I can get health insurance, that will be my biggest accomplishment.

My car insurance is still kind of ugly, because my car has about one year left of any reasonable value before I just switch to liability insurance. I am really tempted to go ahead and make that switch, but not yet.

I wish I could do more with my life than I have done with it. I'm really disappointed in my lack of making a real contribution. I've been dabbling with hagiography again, and I compare my life to those of these amazing people who lived and I can only look with despair at the comparison made to mine. It's hard to be able to volunteer though when one's schedule is in so much flux.

I get paid on Thursday night (thank God), but like the last 10 paychecks, the majority of it will be going on my credit card. I AM paying that bastard off this month, if it kills me. I'm so tired of carrying a balance it's no longer funny. Note to everyone, NEVER use a credit card for tuition. NEVER.

Money's a bitch.