Enraged

I am totally and completely furious right now. As in, my hair is on FIRE angry. As in, I must repress the urge to break dishes angry.

So I come into the lab to work and set up some cells, whatever. I get here, and there's a manilla envelope waiting for me. I think it's work that Dr. Wolkow (check my other blog for details on him. Try around May 2007.) needs me to do for him, because Ray has doormat written all over him. It's not. It's my pay information for the methods course. Dated, conveniently, August 24. WHY AM I GETTING THESE THINGS FOUR MONTHS LATE????

On top of that, the document they want me to sign says that I'm going to get $1144 for my work. HELL NO. I was promised $2000, and I am not taking an over 800 dollar cut without some kind of explanation as to why they want me to sign these documents after the semester is over, why I'm getting a deduction, and why I did not get this information until after the semester is over.

Anyways, it has provided me the motivation I need to finish working in this lab. I'm going to finish cell line #18 on Wednesday, and by Christmas, I should be seriously caught up on writing in my lab notebook on at least 5 more cell lines. Because of how I set my system up, I really don't have to write a hell of a lot for each experiment that I did.

To calm myself down, I'm going to do one of those year in review things:

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?

Had crazy rampant and random sex? Hmm...not quite.
I did however consume actual alcohol for the first time
I also voted for the first time

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I made four big ones. The first one totally blew up, however, I keep trying. The second one looks promising (straight A's), the third one was a go (graduating), and the fourth one was supposed to happen (saving $3000), but didn't because of how extensively I've been fucked over by this lab.

Did anyone close to you give birth?

Yep, my friend Stacie gave birth to a beautiful baby boy a week ago today

Did anyone close to you die?

Not really. My grandfather died, but due to his dementia, I kind of saw the grandpa I knew as dead already. I frankly was more bothered by Brandon dying (it's like four years now, and it still bothers me really badly) than I was by him dying.

What countries did you visit?

Germany, England, and Austria

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Appropriate pay?

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

March 21. Personal reasons.


What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Hello? WRITING TWO THESES!!!!

What was your biggest failure?

March 21.

Did you suffer illness or injury?

Yes, I had this massive flu at the beginning of the year, a cold over summer, and then these weird day sicknesses on graduation and my 21st. No serious injury.


What was the best thing you bought?
Hmm......I dunno. Plane ticket to Ireland?

Whose behavior merited celebration?

Stacie definitely, having worked so hard, and gotten screwed over by her asshole of an ex.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Mine. My lab's.

Where did most of your money go?

Alcohol, Coffee, Germany

What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Getting all of these 'great' things, job offers, 'raises' 'pay' etc.


What song will always remind you of 2008?

Angels, by Within Temptation

Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? Sadder

ii. thinner or fatter? About 15 pounds thinner

iii. richer or poorer? MUCH POORER

What do you wish you'd done more of?

Work on my languages, applying to grad schools BEFORE deadlines....

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Letting people walk all over me like a door mat.

How will you be spending Christmas?

At home, working on lab stuff so I can get the hell out of here sooner.


Who did you spend the most time on the phone with in 2008?

I dunno, I hate telephones.

Did you fall in love in 2008?

No, actually, I became really entrenched in the whole "I hate people" thing.

How many one-night stands?

Oh, probably three or four hundred.

What was your favorite TV program?

I watched basically no TV this year, except football.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Yes. The EVIL EMPEROR.

What was the best book you read?

Dood, I really did not get to read much pleasure reading, so probably one of my Irish history books.

What was your greatest musical discovery?

Within Temptation

What did you want and get?

A job

What did you want and not get?
PAY FOR MY JOB

What was your favorite film of this year?

I saw, literally, no movies this year.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 21, but was ragingly ill that day. I went to class from 10:50-1:30, I worked from 7:00 AM-10:50 AM and 1:40-6:00 PM, and then I went home and went to sleep until about 10:45, got water, and went back to bed.


What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

I seriously cannot emphasize this enough. GETTING PAID

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

Who loves long sleeves? RAY!

What kept you sane?

Lots of swearing

What celebrity/figure did you fancy the most?

I hate celebtiries. Go to hell famous people!

What political issue stirred you the most?

The primary season. I knew the dems were going to win, so general election was all meh.

Who did you miss?

Pshah. I have to say Maricor, because she's the only person who reads this.

Who was the best new person you met?

I really didn't meet anyone new. Hmm.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:

There's a reason why people need to keep their pants ON. Well, I've always known that, but this year showed me that if there's one thing this society needs, it's less reproductive energy.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.


Sparkling angel, I believe, you were my savior in my time of need. Blinded by faith, I couldn't see, all the whispers, the warnings so clear.