Finished

When I say finished on here, I don't mean with classes because I have two things due on Monday--my biochemistry final and my advanced immunology grant. It fortunately was moved, which was actually the only decent thing that happened to me yesterday.

Well, I bought a white chocolate mocha at Starbucks, that was decent for my mental state, which was disastrous yesterday.

I'm kind of coming to grips with the reality that my 4.0 is pretty much trashed right now. I worked for how long to keep it, and in the second to last semester, I blow it to shit. Quaint.

Anyways, I've already finished my biostatistics class this morning, and I only needed to get a 50% or something like that on it to get an A in the course. I'm like 99.99999% certain that I got that A, so I'm going to go ahead and do the CNN thing where they project a winner. For me though, I'm projecting an A.

I do know that I have three A's locked up: Genetics Lab, Bioseminar, and French are all guaranteed A's. I know that I'm going to at least get an A- in logic, and given that it's a 100 level course, the odds are really good that I'm going to get an A in there. I think I needed something like a 60% on the paper to get an A, and nowadays you pretty much at least get a C if you even write a paper.

So really I have maybe three classes up in the air. In advanced immunology, I have no clue whatsoever what my grade is. It could be an A or it can be a C. All I know is that I'm "doing fine" in there--whatever that means.

Biochemistry is pretty sure to be an A. I'll study my ass off for the final, but I really don't have to do well to get an A. If my leg got a bacterial infection and I needed to spend the weekend getting it amputated rather than studying, I know enough biochem where I can get an A. I just hate the idea of getting an A by the seat of my pants. I've done that probably four or five times.

Finally is thesis. I know that I'll have less than an A. I just know that there's no chance in hell of me getting one in there unless the fates are going to torture me in some twisted thing where I get an A and the universe opens some black hole right in front of me, sucks me in, and then the black hole disappears, so that I cannot enjoy the 0.000000000000001% chance actually coming true.

Dammit. It sucks to work so hard and then fuck everything up. I'm already planning to add a whole bunch of shit this fall so that I can prevent my GPA from getting too bad.